I cry from within my soul.
Over the fact that no matter how hard I try to succeed.
You will never be happy for me.
I’ll always be a failure in your eyes.
Yet, a winner to others.
But that doesn’t help me none.
I try so hard to please you.
Yet, once I start getting there you knock me right back down to ground zero.

DAMN IT WHY!
Why can't you just accept me for who I am?
Why can't you be happy with what I have accomplished in my 17 years of
life?
I am far from perfect I know.
You don’t have to tell me that.
Yet, so are your other 2 kids,
Yet they get more love from you then I have in my whole life.
What makes me so different?
I am not jealous.
Just so many times I have wished with all my heart for a different father.
Sad but true.
I wished I had a father I could tell my dreams to an not get bashed that
they will never be real.
A father I could talk to for at least 5 minutes. with out yelling an
fighting.
Now you wonder why I want to go so far away.
Start a life of my own
All because of YOU!
There is no more use trying to please you for we all know that is a waste of
time.
I have stuck up for you so many times an forgiven you a 100 times that.
What a waste an a fool I was to think that could change our relationship.
So I am giving up right now.
I'm not going to try any more.
No more birthday wishes or shooting stars either.
I don’t expect you to understand me.
But it would be nice if you could at least try.
So I'm just going to move on with my life.
And leave YOU behind!
So merry Christmas father an have a nice life!




*This was written on Christmas i have yet to try an structure it an all as
most say. this is just the begin of it. i hope for this to be later my best
poetry i have yet to of written.I know my style is weird of how i write but
this is the best i can try an explain myself an my feelings. so i hope you
at least semi enjoy this. if not well its ok. its my thoughts.*
 
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