He’s afraid it is all his fault,
but it isn’t.
He’s afraid I don’t love him anymore,
but I do.
He’s afraid I will find someone else,
but I won’t.
He’s afraid he is not the one,
but he is.

Friends and family would often come up to me and tell me,
“Ashley, you are only fourteen...”
Now here I am telling myself the same exact thing,
“I’m only fourteen.”

How could I do this to myself...to you?
Things in life are hectic; I have no
idea what to do.
Offers come, and offers go.
I just tried to stay with the flow.
How could I say no to these guys, though?
All I could see was their outside,
But deep down inside...
I wanted to know them more.
How could I though with you wrapped around my finger.
All I could do was hope my crushes would remain in my heart... forever
linger.

I led you on;
It is all my fault.
I admit I did you wrong.
I made you believe I wanted these feelings, these ways
To forever and always stay.
When you reached for my hand...
I could’ve let go.
When you said that you loved me...
I could’ve said, “Not yet, no.”
When you called me every night...
I could’ve told you then.
When you said you wanted me to be yours forever...
I could’ve said, “Let’s remain friends.”

I have to admit,
I am too young...too young to
commit.
I have my whole life ahead of me:
High school, college, dates, marriage, children, and many job
opportunities,
But as life slowly proceeds
I’ll meet tons of guys-
short guys, tall guys, cute guys, ugly guys, funny guys, shy guys, sweet
guys, rude guys, romantic guys.
The funny thing is...
My love for them would just be a speck of dirt,
And mine for you...would be as big as the grand canyon.

I know this is the right thing to do
Because last night I got down on my knees and I prayed for you.
You’re the first guy I prayed for
That should tell you even more.
I just don’t know if I can promise you I’ll be here for you as your
girlfriend,
But I want you to know I’ll always be here as your best friend.
I hope you understand.

 
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