Sitting in a dark corner
Looking at my folded hands in my lap
Feeling so lost
Like i'm on a dark pavement road and i can't
find my way
What else can i say
My heart is breaking
All i've been through
Depression, suicide
Lookin in the mirror expecting
crimson blood flowing down my arms
Seeing the pale whiteness of my skin
Why am i so troubled
Is there any way i can be happy
Instead of being in a depression so deep
That i would rather die then live
Praying to god to provide assistance
Knowing inside that i'm the one who
can change the way things are
Seeing the darkness in my eyes
As if a black wall was preventing me
from really seeing whats in front of me
All because of something that happened
when i was ten
Why can't i get past that one terrible night
Where i was quaking with fear in every inch of my
body
Knowing deep down i was all alone
Went to the police to ask for help
but they turned me away without
a backward glance
I can't close my eyes without
the horrible scene flowing through
my mind
Somebody help me
Help me find a way to live and not die
 
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