Poems...
They come and go through my mind.
Only when i weep without you
Do they soar through my head and bring evil to my eyes....
The only time they come about..
Is when i cry alone...
Nothing left to do now...
But to die and
Write about my destructive days without you...

I write these poems of mine,
To bring happiness to my mind...
Yet they make others weep and cry.
What do I do now?
Stop and cry,
And bottle it all up?
Or,
Should I write
And watch those I love,
Look at the paper in fright...

To my best friend,
My dear Someone...
I love you terribly..
I would never want you to leave my sight.
It just so happens,
That I cry at night..
But when I hear your whispers...
Those ones that are soft and calming,
I stop and smile...
I look at you with my dull,
Lifeless eyes
And when you look back..
Your eyes ....
Those happy eyes....
Bring me to life once again
I feel safe when your around
But frightened and sad when you arent
When the night comes...
And you lay by my side...
I would hate the thought of you being sick and not alive...
I dont know what I would do
I would go insane without you.
If something were to happen to you...
My life would be ruined
I want to stay by your side,
And protect you from the danger outside.
I get scared when you are hurt...
Wanting to help you every second of my life
I hurry next to you
In fright,
But I try to help your damaged body.
Anytime you need help,
I'll be there for you.
And if Im not,
You call me right away...
To tell me you have been hurt in such ways.
Whether its because you were hit or beat...
Or someone made you cry..
I want to calm you with my voice and eyes,
Like you do for me when I need help.
I want to hold you in my arms,
So those tears will go away
And soon I will be happy,
Because no more tears will come...
And soon you will be asleep with me in my arms...
Once again,
I tell you...
I love you.....
In ways I cant describe...
I hope you dont think Im being stupid,
For saying these things to you
But I really want to be happy,
Along with you.

Today,
Another perfect day...
Ruined,
By the peircing cries of your voice.
You scream and yell,
To get anger out.
But what did your yelling accomplish?
Nothing.
Nothing has been given to you in thanks for yelling.
Instead,
A meer tear of sadness was returned to you.
You venture home...
Alone and afraid,
You open the door.
What happens next?
Nothing but the truth I say.
You take the knife and cut away...
Leaving trails of blood throughout your house,
Not knowing whether to die alone, or shout.

There I go...
To find you again,
Im lost in my head
And confused once again.
I walk to your house
I see you lying in your wreck room.
In the corner you sit...
I cant bare to watch this shit...
I see you covered in blood
Your mouth moves,
Little by little the words come clear
" Im sorry, Im sorry,
" I did this to you...
" I didnt mean to make you cry like I do....
" I thought it would solve my problems,
" Maybe make my dreams come true...
" But what it really did,
" Was make my life burn through..."
I see your eyes grow weak,
Please dont leave my sight...
But what is this?
You open your mouth to talk once again..
" Please, I didnt mean it..
" Im sorry, I really am...
" Please dont ruin your life,
" Like the way I did to mine...
You cough a couple times,
My eyes are wide open...
You say your last words..
" Please, dont .. le..av..e. ...m.y. ...si..de
As you die you mumble your last few words...
" I..Lo.v...e....y...ou...to...much....t...o....m..a..ke
...you....d..i..e."
Please, PLEASE...
Dont leave me....
I cant take it
Im gonna go insane.
I take the knife in my hands,
The one you used to kill your head.
And slice away...
Letting the fear go away.
Finally, I can be by you forever and a day
Without people always getting in the way.
I lie next to you and smile,
Like i do when you comfort me.
I lean my head up against your shoulder..
My last tears of joy run down my face,
I kiss the side of your cheek,
Knowing that I will never come awake..
The blackness pours through...
I cant see anything..
My face goes numb
And my sight is dim..
I whisper my last words in your ear..
" I would never leave you,
" Never in a million years,
" I want to die with you,
" And be free from my sins..
" Just so you know,
" These words are so very true...
" I love you so much,
" I promise that I will find you......"
 
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