It doesn't seem real, it seems like a dream.
I wont believe that god has taken you away from me.
I don't understand why, I really want to know.
What was so hard that you had to go?
I love you so much, and all I can think about is the times we shared.
its hard to believe that your actually gone.
I wont let myself believe it, I know your still here.


Its been really hard. Moms taking it the worst.
She loves you so much. She can't help but cry it hurts her so much.
Alanna's not the same, around them both I'm not able to speak your
name.
I miss you so much, i try not to cry, but one day I know I will see you
again.

Why did you have to do this? You know I'm always here.
No matter what happened I came to you and you came to me,
when something was wrong. I feel as if I could have provented it.
If I had just talked to you, Or maybe went down earlier enough.
I have let you down it seems the time you needed me the most was the time
I wasn't there. I love you so much Eric.

I want you back. I want you here with me.
You can't leave now, you have a whole family.
I don't know how I can live without you.
Your my big brother. I wanted you to be the one there,
to see me achive my goal and walk me down the aisle when i get married.

I wish you would have thought before you acted.
We all love you so much, I don't know how you feel like you needed to
go.
it wasnt your time. your too young, I know things were rough, but like mom
said
"Nothing is that bad to do that." Things could have been better.

Theres not a day that goes by that I don't think about you.
You will always be in my heart. I wish I could have saved you.
I guess God needed you, but I still hold a grudge to god.
Why did he take you from me? why? our family are the ones that need you.

I love you so much... I miss all the times we had.
i'll never forget them, I will always cherish them
Please watch and guide over me and everyone else.
I will never say good-bye.
 
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