I'm alone once again
Thoughts racing through my mind
Will it hurt? Will I cry?
Is this my time to die?

A knife gripped in my right hand
Gently grazing my pale white skin
It'd be so easy to give up now
To be rid of the pain within

Everybody dies
It shouldn't be a big deal
Especially if you knew what I go through
If you knew all the things I feel

My heart doesn't seem big enough
These emotions don't seem to fit
There's not much I can do
But do I really want to quit?

Do I want to hurt the ones I love
Just to make things easy for me?
Am I willing to give it all up
Never knowing what I could be?

Things could get easier
But right now they seem so tough
Can I stand any more pain
Or have I dealt with enough?

These questions haunt my soul
As they run throughout my mind
Should I end it all now?
Leave my body for you to find?

I don't know what to do
So I guess we'll have to see
Until then, thoughts race my mind
As I sit here quietly
 
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