I am so distraught
I don’t know where I’m going
My whole life is falling apart in front of me
And all I can do is watch it crumble away
I am not the strong girl that I used to be
I can’t tolerate pain, yet that is all I have ever known
Everyone has seen to that
Breaking me in any way they see fit
I’m like a rag doll, existing but not alive
All I can do is watch the people play with my life
Shaping me the way they want me to be
I can’t stand it anymore, yet there’s nothing I can do
I’m just the innocent bystander watching the things I love
Walk away from me and never looking back
Never caring to know how I am
Because that is all they have known how to do
I pray to God to make things go back to the way they were
A life where I was happy, free
But He doesn’t listen
He takes everything away from me
Expecting me to get by without help
Living a life of fear
And everyone stares in wild amazement
I am the show they paid to see
I’m slipping through the cracks now
Watching everything dissipate into the air
I’m left with nothing, no one
Alone in my room watching the stars
And humming the night away
 
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