Most of my friends are gone,
And I go numb on the inside.
This has happened to me before,
And insanity took over.
Some insanity is there,
But none like before.
When she walks into the room,
I am truly ignored.
At first I felt crushed,
But now I am understanding more about myself.
They will never know about my silent tears that fall,
They shall never know that I was weak through it all.
I hold my head up high anymore,
And ignore them back.
I take all the pain as if I was a hungered beast.
I will have my fill of pain after this feast.
My one other friend flirts with the guy I love.
I feel so alone anymore,
I have so much anger,
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
I can’t speak my anger out loud,
So I will keep it within myself.
It boils hot sometimes,
That I think I will explode.
Yes I miss friends,
And I miss love,
But most of all,
I miss the me that is gone,
And I know that it shall never return.
And neither shall my friends.
The truth is hard on me.
But I face it as best as I can.
I try to look around my faults,
And my anger,
To find the true me,
With no danger.

 
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