Do you ever fall asleep wondering if I'll be alive when you wake?
And when that day comes
What will you think?
Will you wonder why?

I took that gun and put it in my mouth.
And held it there..
The tears falling..
As i think about the ones I love.
So, I close my eyes and let my finger put more pressure on the tiger till
the gun goes boom and with it, it takes my brains.

Or

Why I took all those pills?
And layed myself down to sleep, to never wake.
Why didn't I just call you, instead Of taking pill after pill...
Wanting to throw up after each one..
But took the whole bottle, till I couldn't see straight.
Then fell upon my bed, knowing that I'll never wake.

Or

Why I bleed to death?
Why I sat down in the tube. And turned the shower on.
Letting the water wash over my body, still in my clothes.
So, now I won't be able to tell if I'm crying or if it is just
water.
Then i pick up the knife that you gave in for my birthday.
Hold it up to my wrist.
And push down till the blood starts to leave my body.
Then do it to my other arm.
I look down at the blood in the tube and my clothes, mixing with the water..

Going down the drain..
Who will find my drained bloodless body?

Or

Why I was found swinging from the roof...
Why I went to the garage and got the rope that use to hold the tire swing.
That we use to play on when we were little.
Then I headed to the basement. I went to the pipe..
That we use to always hang off, knowing it would hold my body weight.
Getting a chair.
Tying the robe to the pipe, and the rope around my neck.
Took a deep breath, let it out and then kicked the chair out from under
myself.
All the air squeezed out of my body..
Only found a couple minutes to late.
How would you react?
Would you cry?
Would you break down?
Would you blame yourself?
I hope not...
For this is not your fault..
But my own.
You offered me help...
But I never took it.
So, please do not shed a tear for what could not be saved.
 
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