1991 B.C.

For those of you who might ponder the cost,
I cannot explain this indescribable loss.

My heart bleeds with this agonizing sacrifice,
the choice I made came with an invaluable price.

The knowledge of foresight, which I had lacked
lead me to desolation, barren and black.

For my choice was not to keep it,
for eternity the clock tolls with this forbidden secret.

This tragedy raining within me, bound by lock and chain,
bears a weight so heavy, freedom’s not mine to gain.

Lifelessly surviving within the norms of society,
an empty shell I walk among you, yet I am dead to me.

This is never to be mentioned, never discussed nor shared
for these were my actions, my voice, my choice who cared?

2002 A.C.

Although I was loaned a gift that I chose not to receive
11 years later I happily perceive.

Entering into heaven my gift taken back
very slowly as she was unwrapped;
1 little body sleeping in beauty
1 set of eyes, Mommy's and Daddy's little cutie
1 tiny nose to smell heavenly flowers
1 pair of pink lips kissed upon the hour
1 pair of ears to hear GOD say I love you
1 little mouth to smile and coo
1 pair of soft hands, little knees and feet
to crawl upon our father’s lap for this is their seat.

Today I stand unchained, unlocked and free
And, I give this letter from heavens children to thee.

Dear Mommy and Daddy,

We laugh and play
And wait for the day
Which you fulfill your duties.
We miss you too and pray for you
With love,

Your little cuties



 
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