when you look at me

do you see my many personalities?

can you help me?

can you even see me?

this is my reality i'm going crazy.



i've been burn hell back ,

i'm searching for the right answers to my life.

i've been looking at my self, trying to get things right~

but yet i'm running from my self and all the thing i don't like.

wishing every night to wipe away this sanity of pain from me.



by this pain i'm feeling inside of me, i felt like i was drag in the
rain

dying beaten with pain, beneath this i'm falling with blindness

and every second i'm falling from darkness.



i don't know what to do, got know one to trust nor to believe,

i'm losing my self, burning each every second left.

i basically protecting my self over me !

everywhere i turn it's a dead end in front of me,

a dead end that i could never escape.!



i stop believing that in our life we need a space for happiness,

coz my life has been drowned by lies & sadness,

that i can't help to forget!!



i don't know where's my reality, i don't know if i could get
off this

i'm damn scared, i'm confused, i'm lost

i don't know if this anger would pull me down,

but the fact i know that that this anger is my protection over to everybody,
i don't care!

i don't know if i could trust! coz you never did trust me!

i don't know if my silence would eat me alive,

i have no control...



now the pain became strong,

i became more weaker,

the darkness is lifting and it begins to hunt me down,

i felt each every moment of it...



you bet my heart is cold & dark,

and you don't even have a damn clue what's in it!



god i'm so tired....



i'm tired of people giving me lies.

i'm tired of people messing my life.

i'm tired of pretending.

i'm tired of listening bullshits.

i'm tired fucking things up, just like i always do.

i'm tired of drinking pills just to be okay.

i'm tired of smoking shit just to relieved the pain of hatin' my
self.

i'm tired of people judging me, fuck what they know bout' me??!!

i'm tired of everything....



but sometimes i wonder, why i wonder so much.

over analyzing this fucking anger & pain,

i try to get to the core of this feeling of me

and yes i did felt it!!!



i what a revenge.......... are you ready for it???
 
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