I am scared as I walk into this dreadful room
Unwilling to accept what is soon to come.
I gaze deeply in through the blurred reflection
And stare hard into my eyes, searching.
There is this saddened look on this girl’s face--like she is in pain.
I feel ashamed at what I look at
I am disgusted with this worthless girl--this failure.
Tears of fear slowly start to creep up into her eyes
But she has to has to hold back--has to stay strong.
I am hoping to see a figure which is perfect and beautiful,
With every single bone and organ visible
Protruding sharply through a pale paper-thin layer
But come to find a different girl
Now with all this excess flesh
That which suffocates this poor girl
I am disgusted and feel empty inside.
I am weak and have failed--for once I have lost
My precious battle in which I had so greatly mastered.
I want to go back--I am lost and alone.
I wish to step into the mirror
And fall back and become that girl I long to be.
That of whom I was…and will be once more
 
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