My body is numb and tangled in knots
You sit there and stare while my mind slowly rots
My pupils are dilated and my eyes blood shot
I don’t dare to close them for the fear of getting caught
Caught by the darkness that holds on so tight
Wrapping me in coils till I can’t see the light
Starting at my legs it wraps all around
All up my body till I fall to the ground
Six feet under I lie in my bed
Bed of my grave how quickly I am dead
It’s amazing how many feelings I couldn’t feel
But the pain I feel now is so unbelievably real
It’s tearing me apart all I want to do is cry
But I can’t feel the tears all bottled up inside
My eyes are swollen and red with pain
My body is twitching I’m going insane
I bled tonight with all creation
But not from cutting, from imagination
I dreamt of how it felt to slice through my wrist
Cutting it deeply I did it with a twist
I remember all the pills that drowned out my thoughts
I swallowed so many I slowly forgot
Sitting outside the smoke swept across my lips
Hallucinating wildly my mind was doing flips
Lately I don’t attempt my suicidal dreams
Reality and imagination clash and together they stream
The thoughts are so deep they seem as though they're real
Taking me beyond myself to wounds that will never heal
My mind is twisted and filled with fury
You can’t condemn me now I am my own jury
Just turn around now, or my madness you will feed
With your frustrating questions,that make me want to bleed
 
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