Im here
In the hospital again
Why are the walls and floors soft?
Do they think every chance i get i'll go off?
Why is everything white
And why is this light so damn bright
There are ace bandages around my wrists again
The hardest is about to begin
But this time i cant move
Is there something they want me to prove
Knelt in a corner
By the end of this i'll have my own mourner
My arms wrapped around me again
Im in a straight jacket
They've taken all my anger
Put it in this room to stack it
Clostraphobia overcomes me
Tears cloud my eyes so its hard to see
Heartbeaks quicken
My bloodflow rapidly thickens
My wrist is feeling wet
I cant believe i havent had a panic attack yet
There is nothing but a bed
Why did they bring me here
There it goes
Down my cheek my first tear
But not from being scared
But anger
That nurse put me here i'll soon hang er
I want to go home
I try to get up but only fall over
Using my back i push off the wall
I sit up again from my fallen position
Lookin down only wishin
I wish i would have cut deeper
Now im back where i started
Damn im retarded
The door is shut tight
I wish someone were here
To tell me i will be alright
How long has it been
I put my head down
In silence i sit
Someone is coming i hear footsteps...oh shit
They are coming closer
Why couldnt i have just died
From bein an over doser
Would anyone have even cried?
The door opens
The trim of the door full of rips
Straight from human fingertips
A struggle from being pulled in
I guess we all made this sin
Its a man
Here comes the questions
Blah blah blah
My answer...
Im not crazy
Do you know its against the law?
My answer...
Im not crazy
Did you do it for attention?
My answer...
Im not crazy
Is there anything you care to mention?
My answer...
Im not crazy
Urine tests, anti-deppressents, and questions
Does it ever end
I know these scars will never mend
Hes gone
I see the clock
Its the break of dawn
The clocks tocks are only mocks
They laugh at me while i sit here
I sit drowning in fear
84 hours of no sleep
I didnt speak a single peep
Not a blink
Didnt sleep a wink
Staring at the door till hour 84
Now its time to go home
But i know im not alone
My life is a garenteed sacrifice
Because under my pillow
Is my knife waiting to slice
 
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