I sit silently during the night,
Hiding from everything, hiding from sight,
I dont know why i feel like ive changed,
Theres nothing in my live thats been re-arranged.
I dont want to write, it takes to much time,
But it helps me get my feelings out with every rhyme,
I dont want to write anymore, someone stop me,
I just want to be alone..thats all i want to be.
I'll suffer on my own, i dont need your guidance anymore,
After all of this, i gave up writing, upon it i swore,
I declared that i was through, done writing this crap,
Will someone stop me, give me a good slap.
I can't help it, its gay i know,
This is the only way my feelings actually show,
I'm confused in side, n twisted, too,
Fine don't believe me, but what i say is true.
I bet you think its all a scam, a cry for attention,
Well thanks, yea i love you too, i'm glad i caught your attention,
I don't want your attention, i dont want your pity, just leave me
alone,
I'm fine, I suffer, but I suffer alone, I suffer on my own.
It may look like i depend on everyone to make me feel better,
Well watch those who think that, won't be getting my letter,
Once its over and its at its final end,
Watch, you'll wish that you didn't treat me bad, that you were my
friend.
To late, i'm sorry to say, i've begun to write,
and it isnt goin to be good, its goin to give you a fright,
I don't care what you think, I'm not goin to listen to you,
You've made me feel miserable, to a point ive never felt or knew.
Well you know what, now i'm writing, and i hope your happy now,
This isnt an act, i'm not going to end with, with, with a bow,
Oh sure draw the curtain, she's done, pull it down,
Well you know what, i've got a lot to say and with it, i frown.
Don't think this is a joke, a little scam, a ltitle prank,
I'm sorry i'm low, high is somethin i don't rank,
I'm messed up in the head, it gets real bad, i can't handle it,
not at all,
It's like i'm being blocked, from the happiness i could of had,
theres a wall.
I stand, then lean, against this wall, and tears begin to fall,
Oh shes faking it, oh just walk away, its not true at all,
Well good, leave me here, I don't want you near,
I don't want pity, I don't want help, I want to be alone, alone
right here.
I said I couldn't write, and i know i cant, but this gets out what i
have to say,
Sometimes i wish, that i were gone, and that everyone was far away,
I sometimes dream of being dead, and weatching everyone live misearble, the
way i do,
Yea sure there'll be people who walk around and be like, that was
someone i knew.
But yea, so you knew me, that doesn't mean i knew you,
You walked around sayin oh yea we're best friends, but thats somethin
you'd never do,
You'd never want to get to know me,
You'd just want to torture me, and never let me be.
Shes a poser, shes a fake,
Thats the pain, the pain i can not take,
Shes no good, she wants attention, shes a bitch,
Well you know what, you annoy me, like an irritating itch.
I don't care what you say, okay maybe i do,
Or else i wouldn't be writing this, writing of you,
The hell you put me through, the pain i must live through,
Well you know what, i'll just be that girl you though you knew.
No one knows me, no one knows how I feel,
Sure i could tell you, but thats just the side, not the pain thats real,
Oh yea i'm hurt, it hurts, i need to be alone,
Do i get that? no i have everyone chasin me, i can't be on my own.
Yes i'm grateful that you've tried,
But you would never know the amount of tears ive cried,
I bet you've never felt so much pain, that you would of givin anythin
to have died,
Oh yes Tina, we know how you feel, yea wow, how many times you've
lied.
You could never feel my pain,
I've cried so much, more than anytime it has ever rained,
Okay im done bitching, I'm sorry to have wasted your time,
I just needed somethin to do, so i began to rhyme.
Don't expect me to write much more,
For i don't want to, its a waste of time, to that i swore,
So make best of this final passage of words,
And stop mocking me of the things i feel, these are my final words.
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