I.sit.here.watching.everyone.shine.a.smile.
I.pretend.nothings.wrong.and.forget.for.awhile.
but.the.screaming.still.rings.in.my. ears.like.a.song.
the.screaming.it.tears.and.the. blood. that.dripped.on.
it.kept.burning.and.burn.till.it.finally.
bled.
so.many.regretfull.memories.in.my. head.
but.somehow.the.stare.made.the.pain.go.back.low.
though.its.not.an.answer.but.a. place.to.go.
that.shuts.off.the.thinking.of.hurtfull.
thoughts.
or.the.hopes.of.dying.that.the.sharp. takes.the.shot.
that.i.wont.have.to.live.on.thinking.of.all.this.hate.
that.i.wont.have.to.live.on.thinking. for.sumway.to.fate.
i.couldnt.forget.about.the.times.and.nights.i.cried.
picturing.an.article.with.my.name.
under.whos.died.
im.told.commiting.suicide.is.hells. blackhole.way.
but.hell.is.just.this.suffering.not. worse.then.here.today.

 
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