The clock strikes, the moon rides,
This is the midnight hour.
Diamond stars peek out to shine, creatures of the night arise,
This is the midnight hour.

People sleep and people drink,
Safe in their dreams and caught up in their party,
I never guessed that this would hurt so badly.

I think to myself, as I listen to the yells,
“Just ignore it, you can make it”
THUD, someone hits the floor,
The voice again comes back for more, broken promises from long ago,
“They will stop soon, close your eyes and go to sleep, heal in the world of
your dreams”
CRASH, something breaks and someone screams, the begging the pleading, but
to no avail.
“Don’t listen to them, don’t care about them, if you don’t care they have no
power to hurt you”,
Yelling curses and crying, when will it end?
“Don’t to this to yourself, just try to hold on, take your mind far away
from here”
I can’t do it, I can’t do it,
This broken home is more than I can stand.

The screaming, the yelling, the crashes, the crying, tune them all out, dull
sounds of death.
Speak to me not; I do not long for your black kiss.
Curl up in a ball on this bare mattress; hug my pillow like it’s my rock to
pull me through,
Liquid eyes with silent cries, black and blue, always bruised,
Stare so helplessly up at the moon.
Praying to God or someone up there, please help me, I can’t take it, I am
all alone down here.
But what do I get?
Nothing but silence.
Scarring and bleeding, innocent blood flows from the wounds.

Just pray that they will leave me be, I won’t talk to them,
Just lay here safely.
Maybe they’ll drink and then they’ll pass out,
The silent blessing of alcohol.

Watch the shadow on the moon,
See the shadows on my walls,
Dancing in my head and darkness before my eyes,
Then there’s the ghost of me and you.

You couldn’t understand, you didn’t want to see,
The hard burning light of reality,
The empty tears that fall from me.
Not fooled by my smile, didn’t buy the excuses of the bruise,
But then you saw the scars and you got scared and left me too.

As I stare at the night sky,
Fog and wind fluttering through the blinds,
Breathe it in, so sweet, I wish I could just evaporate.
Sigh and cry, the dark secret of being alone,
What I am going through, no one would ever know.
Crying, thinking I lost my only,
A solitary island,
No one there ‘cause no one understands,
I’m starting to believe that I am the only one who will ever actually
understand me.

Those long lost years have stopped from here,
But I still carry the burdens and scars.
Eyes no longer bruised, but a heart that’s cut and blackened, dead, and
broken in two,
And still I continually miss you.
Nothing will ever be normal, all that still bottled up and hurting,
One day I know I’m going to crack,
And I really wish that I had my soul back,
But until that time I will try to remain in tune,
The darkness for me, the light for you.

 
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