I can faintly hear your voice
As it’s words lick my ear
“Move on, move on”
Without you
I don’t know what I fear.
I no longer know your safety
I no longer know your words
I can’t describe the way I am today
But happy for your burn
I’m signaling for your happiness
Go on, I’ll be ok
I’m just trying to be who I used to be
But it’s hard for me today
It’s hard to look up in every class
And see your mimicking smile
It’s hard to be around you
And think the same all the while
But I guess I can forget you now
But I just don’t want to let go
I know that it’s unhealthy
But I’m so used to this flow
So as I try to keep busy
I hear you in my ears
Telling me “Go on, go on”
And still I’m afraid and I fear
I fear that some day you’ll walk away
And leave me lying, in the dust
After all, you’ve done it before
Left for reasons of hate and lust
But everything’s moving so quickly now
I know I can’t describe it all
But everything’s blurring before me
Who will catch me if I fall?
Who will tell me it’s alright,
When something I do goes terribly wrong?
Who will whisper in my ear
The words to all my favorite songs?
I can’t help it that I miss you
But I guess it’s not my choice
I know that you don’t favor me
But I still hear your voice
Even as you talk to her
Jealousy bubbles in my head
Your words still sting my ringing ears
For all those words you say, I dread
“Go on, go on” they tell me
But my poor, scarred heart won’t move
I’m scared of going on in life
And loving all I lose
I’m waiting justly for something new
Something to tell me I’m still alive
Something un-ordinarily real
Something that still gives me life
For tiny towns and lost first loves
Are not my piece of pie
I’d like to leave this forbidden town
But time just passes me by
I’ll drown myself in music and work
And try not to think about you
For it’s her burden now, and forever not mine
But in my heart, to you I’m still true
I’ll be standing atop this pillar,
Ever waiting for you to return
Your happiness means the world to me
But still my heart you burn
I’m tired of holding up this light
Guiding you throughout your paths
Taking in your scornful hurts
Soaking up your spineless laughs
Help me, for I stumble now
Guide me, for I trip
‘Give me liberty, or give me death’
Upon this poison I sip
I’d rather die than watch you with her
I’d rather kill than watch you love
I’d rather attempt myself to suicide...
Just to reach The Above…
So watch out for your Satan, darling
Remember that I’m here
And try not to wear out your welcome, darling
Because to me, you’re still dear…
Even though you break my heart
And shatter my sanity for lust
I’ll still be ever true to you
Because, my friend, ‘tis you that I trust.
I'm not your Lady Liberty,
I was only your first kiss
So love her, like you loved me
And take care of your bliss.

 
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