I hate you.
I hate the way you look at me
I hate the way you make feel.
I hate the way you lied to me.
Do you remember when you said he was going to be home soon?
When he was actually lying on his deathbed.
He never came home.

Remember when you said I couldn't drink?
'You'll thank me later'
How the hell am I suppose to thank you
When I don’t even know what I’m missing.

Do you remember yell at me?
Telling me, I'm Worthless
Telling me, you don’t even know why
You stayed with us,
'Cause we're ignorant and stupid.
Remember yelling AT ME?
Telling me that I'm not the only one with feelings...

Do you remember the week before?
When you yelled at me
When you found out that I
Wrote, that I don’t believe in 'God',
And said I am emotionally dead.
I died the day Nonnie died.
Just to let you know.

I hate the fact that you actually
Think that you know me
You judge me,
And you don’t even know me.

Now you think everything went back
To the way it was-
When I was a little girl.
When you said, 'I love you'
And I replied truthfully, 'I love you too'
Now I dont care what you say
I’m going to say anything so
I don’t have to listen to your lies anymore.

I hate the fact I can see you for
What you really are.
When everybody sees what you want them to see.

I’m like you - you know?
I have this ability to wear a 'mask' too.
To let people see what I
Want them to see.
But you can only wear a mask so long before it
Cracks.
I can only hide so much
Remember earlier when I said that
I’m not the only one with feelings.
Well you’re right.
I don’t feel anything
I hate you for making me like this.

Even after everything
You put me through
I still come home
Thinking-
No hoping that things will be
Like they used to be

When I use to love you and
Would given anything for you.
Nothing has really changed-
Only that I don’t love you,
But I still give anything for you
I hate you for that.
 
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