She crashes through the doors
Runs straight up the stairs
A “Hi honey” echoes behind her
Into the bathroom
Slam the door
And turn on the shower
Her eyes explode in tears
She can’t see
But she rummages through the shelves
She finally finds it
Sweet salvation
A fresh, clean
Razor blade
She pauses for ones brief moment
To think
But screw thinking
She’s too far-gone
She sets down the blade
Carefully
Like it might break
She tears off her clothes
Picks up the razor
And steps into the shower
It’s boiling
But she doesn’t feel it
She’s too numb
A cut here
It should hurt
She knows
But she doesn’t notice anything
A stream of red
Flows swiftly down the drain
Such a pretty little stream
A slice there
No pain
Sweet salvation
She looks at herself
Bleeding
She should be disgusted
But she’s not
She doesn’t feel anything
Her whole body shakes
The tears come again
And mix with the water
Tons of steam rises up
It must be so hot
For once,
she feels beautiful
In this moment
Wet, crying, bleeding, matted hair
She feels so beautiful,
for once
Such a pathetic scene
But to her
Everything in this moment
Looks
Feels
Tastes
Sounds
Smells
Like sweet salvation
She looks down
It won’t be long now
She thinks of writing a note
To say sorry
For everything
For always screwing up
For never truly being happy
For this
Screw the note
She’s too far-gone
It won’t be long now
One final gash
Long
And deep
Across her heart
Her broken heart
It won’t be long now
She’s soooo dizzy
Her knees buckle
She falls to the ground
It won’t be long now
She lies there
Water rains down on her
Blood pours out of her
It won’t be long now
Just leave her there
And it won’t take long
No one open the door
It won’t be long now
No one come up
Until it’s over
It won’t be long now
She takes a breath
Let
Her
Be
It won’t be long now
Her pain will end
It won’t take long

 
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