You tear me up inside.
So bad, you have no clue.
Every thing you say to me,
Every thing you do.

I try to conceal all my pain,
I put it in my head.
I know someday, I’ll just blow up.
I wish that I were dead.

Mom, you say you love me,
and you say that you’ve been there.
Well, nothing you’ve been through comes close to this,
It’s nothing you could share.

My hands they begin shaking,
When you yell at me.
I do nothing most of the time.
Someday you will see.

You will see the pain I feel,
That haunts me everyday.
You will FEEL the anger inside.
You will see the way.

The way that I live my life,
I try to be accepted.
Someday soon you’ll see my hurt,
It won’t be as you expected.

You think I’m just a happy teen,
With lots of friends that care.
I’m sorry I’m not who you think I am.
This judging, I can’t bare!

I can’t bare to think about
The times when u once loved me.
I don’t know why those times changed,
I yearn for you to hug me.

I can’t put up with all your lies.
The suffering and the pain.
I can’t deal with all this shit
It’s making me insane.

I’m the sad and lonely girl,
Once known as your daughter.
I’m sorry I can’t say that now.
I’m sorry I hate my father.

You know what he’s done to me,
The shaking and the beatings.
Why don’t you stand up to him?
I’m like a water puddle, receding.

I’m receding into a little shell.
A shell I call my own.
I hide there when there is nothing left,
Nowhere to call home.

I’m sorry you don’t see my hurt,
I’m sorry you can’t see.
But I can see through my blind eyes.
We’re a broken family.
 
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