we were fighting
i was mad
and so were you
i shot out words
but so did you
i got furious
you got hurt
i went out
and so did you
i went to my car
and so did you
i pulled off
but you stayed
you turned your car on
and stayed in the garage
you put up the windows
and filled the air with gas
hoping your life would now soon pass
i came home
ready to yell
only to see you
facing all hell
you were dying
i was crying
i called 911
and then my mom
on the way to the hospital
they couldnt help
so they put us in a helicopter
to go somewhere else
and to my suprise
their aid did help
i felt guilty
but you couldnt tell
you were unconcious
but getting well
when you woke up
the whole family was there
i told you i loved you
i told you im sorry
i told you it was my fault
and i'll never forgive myself
but what about our kids?
what will i tell them?
they're still babies
only seven and nine
will they even understand
that just today,
daddy almost died
that just today,
daddy almost took his life
will they understand
that it was all my fault
that mommy made daddy want to die
that mommy made daddy want to say good-bye
i couldnt bear the questions
i couldnt bear to tell them
not now, not ever
i could never tell my babies
that just today
i almost killed daddy!

i wrote this on account of what happened to my sister about a month ago. i
know that for all the guilt she faces i will never know the same, and for
all the times her kids ask her what happened that day, she'll never be
able to tell them. and i know my poem doesnt even hit the surface of all
that she feels, i just hope for who ever is reading this that even though
awful things happen life does go on and there are always a million good
things to make up for the bad.....I LOVE YOU ERICKA AND IM ALWAYS HERE FOR
YOU!

 
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