Seclusion is my savior
Cradle of destruction’s will
I am captive to my behavior
As my life begins to spill

I sit upon the window sill
Looking at the outside world
Fearing it as I lay still
Never wanting to be cured

I lay under the covers of deception
And bask in my defeat
I am perfection’s exception
And wallow in retreat

Kiss into the blackened light
And welcome my demise
I given up the will to fight
As I stare through bloodshot eyes

I look back to when I was alive
And don’t miss it all that much
No longer willing to survive
I relinquish human touch

Alone in my hand built captivity
I cry these scorched tears
Reveling in this negativity
I’ve learned throughout the years

A heart laid upon the fire
And a soul locked within a cage
Death is my desire
Confided in mortal rage

Hands tied by malicious ropes
Similar to the one around my neck
Severed from all false hopes
My life remains a wreck

I can’t turn back now
It’s my sweet destiny
All I can do is wonder how
This became of me

I used to be a joyous one
Who smiled among the crowds
I used to go out and have fun
Without a sky of clouds

But suddenly my world fell down
I was caught among the rubble
And the world washed over in brown
As problems began to double

Everything was drown away
In tears by the not so innocent
I created my dying day
By the way my life was spent

I deserved my extinction
Through the evil that I became
I was sin with one distinction
I reflect with proper shame

But now this rope decides my fate
If it holds my weight I’m threw
I’m sorry I lived through hate
It’s all I ever knew
 
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