Crying to myself holding in the tears
Not expressing my worst fears
Seeing you next to me, yet feeling you’re gone
These last moments together won’t last for long.

Every time we leave each others view
I worry that that’s the last I’ll see of you
Lying awake at night staring at the ceiling
Thinking about what you’re probably feeling.

Letting you go will take so much of me
But in my heart our memories I won’t set free
Tears now streaming down my cheeks
This has been going on for weeks.

I’m trying so hard to keep myself controlled
But all of the sudden the blade I hold
Cutting away the pain I feel
Making my emotions something physically real.

Staring at my arm seeing my past
I guess my happiness will never last
Feeling like our last goodbye
Is a new beginning of my unwanted life.*

 
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