Youth jaded
The color of this life is faded
Secure in myself yet lacking salvation
What have I done for this stagnation?
To hide in a land of my own creation
The days I have spent dreaming
Enrapt in hope or colorful memory
I want not leave of this blessed reverie
But long I think I will remain
On this world; this mortal plane
Yet half the time I walk away
My mind still stuck in yesterday
And my heart always in front of me
Ambitious to find love
To find truth and beauty
Capable am I
Of slipping into my own realm
With my own rules; under my own sky
And yet I cannot even fix
What is real and tangible
All I have to cling to
I find is hardly manageable
Life has only given me good
No sadness clouds it yet
But still
If I can break free I will
Find the trail I’m not even seeking
Where any havoc could be wreaking
Dare I walk the path not taken?
Or absent myself from this world
My body vacant
Should I follow no longer defiant?
And still rebel but keep it silent
Or should I fade into the mass
Worry myself no longer what comes to pass
So many questions
Perhaps the best option has always been
To crack the system from within
Until then I let them lead me
To what may come; joy or sorrow
Always in my soul pleading
To find the road to tomorrow
 
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