I just want to add that this poem may not be ther best, but I wrote it just
before breaking up with a boyfriend. He was what was suposed to make me
happy, which wasn't happiness but pure unhappiness.

So many emotions
Always running through my mind
So many tears
Always streaming from my eyes
So many times I sat
Shaking in fear
Everyone tries to calm me
But it is too late for me
I have begun another stage of my life
Depressed and unhappily
The things I want
I really cant have
Because the things I want
Make me unhappy
What seems for the best
Is really the worst
But if what seems to be happy
Eventually turns out wrong
Then is happiness a never lasting feeling
Is happiness my weakness
Is happiness something I can live without
Is my unhappiness a sign
To never try to be happy
To live a sorrow some life
Alone, dark, and dreary
Is my destiny lonesome
Cause happiness is not on my path
Because happiness always goes bad
Resolving to self mutilation
To bring the pain down
If I cannot have happiness
What else can I do
No one can help me
Not that the help is needed
If everything happens for a reason
Than I deserve the agony
My happiness is my pain
Therefore my smiles are my frowns
My laughter are my cries
In the end
Its all so clear
I must live my life like this
The happiness is pain
So happiness is what I must live without
I must live a life
Of suffering
 
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