You look at me through your hateful eyes, hurtful eyes
And through them I come to realize
They say everything that you never could, never would-
That I am all you never wanted,
All you ever loathed-
Does it hurt too bad
To know that I am a product of you?
To know that somehow my failure as a human being
Is tied tightly to your failure as a guiding light?-
I bet it does,
I bet it eats away at your very soul, your every waking thought
And all I can do is apologize
As if one word, one pathetically short and simple word
Could somehow erase all that I have done and said
Somehow make real what I could have done, should have said-
I will never be what you want me to be
And I'm so sorry it had to be this way,
So sorry it had to end this way
It has to end-

I hold my salvation in my hands, split second away from release
One quick pull away from release
Don't you wish you could see your little girl now? All broken...
You'd be so proud

 
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