I am very lost right now, confused and torn
Some days I just cry and wish I were never born.
I watch my parents fight, as they fall a part
They tell me its MY fault, for every broken heart.
People don’t know what goes on at home
I don’t talk about it I just leave it alone.
I put on a mask, and cover up what’s real
People will judge me, they don’t care how I feel.
I wont be noticed so I curl up into a ball
I look at my feet, when I walk down the hall.
I cant be myself, the person I know
I will push you away to get you to go.
I have nothing to lose, and nothing to gain
Nothing but a life, filled with never ending pain.
I wanna be myself, smile and have fun
I have so much to look forward to, before my life is done.
These emotions take me over and I get so confused
My thoughts are ignored and my feelings abused.
Nothing ever makes sense to me, I feel so lost!
Why am I always hurting? Paying this never ending cost!
I am willing to live and longing to die
This world has too much pain, I do not want to cry.

 
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