This doesn’t feel fair to me
I don’t fell like I should be the one standing here next to you
But I’m afraid of everything around me
And I cant move

I’m dieing
But I’m still alive
Holding onto the pain that once held me


I’m afraid of commitment
I’m afraid to believe
That you actually want to be here with me
I’ve lost my mind
But I’ve still got my heart

I’m dieing
But I’m still alive
Holding onto the pain that once held me

I prefer not to face facts
Because in the end
I’m the one who gets slapped down
And I don’t need another scar to cover with excuses

I’m dieing
But I’m still alive
Holding onto the pain that once held me

Nobody thinks to read the pain between the lines
But the pain that they’ve carved into our hearts
Is to intense to face

I’m almost dead
But I’m so alive
Bound to the pain that scarred me for life

They say healing is easy
But to me it was the hardest part of all
To face my pain
It feels like I’ve been driven away from humanity
 
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