someone tell me why i am not happy with who i am
all of my feelings, i can't seem to understand
scared to let people see me cry
just wish that i'd die
as i cry and tears run down my cheek
i hate the feeling of being so weak
i begin to think and thoughts run throgh my head
sometimes i just wish that i'd not wake up and be dead
i feel all alone at times
even when so-called friends are at my side
i'm not as pretty as a perfect cheerleader would be
thinking of why that can't be me
thoughts racing through my mind
i'm having fatal thoughts of suiced
i have pieces broken in my heart
could it be my dad that tore me apart
the bump into me like i'm not even there
if i'd kell myself, would you even notice or care?
i'd like to say that i'm not happy and want to die
and i'd let them suffer, breakdown and cry
you'll just think it was all just a game
but one day, a tombstone will read my name
you will regret what you do and say
you will need me but i won't be there that day
will these feelings ever change
or do i have to die to release all this pain
to get out everuthing that i need to say
that stays on my mind each and everyday
what has been killed is my pride
no more will i have to hide
because this is the day i say goodbye
 
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