There's a little girl
who sits in school
hiding cuts on her arm
but no one's a fool.
No one understands
they keep getting bad thoughts
she's not suicidal
just handling stress everything has brought.
If only people understood
why she does her cuts
maybe they would stop
with their "what if's" and "but's"
She does this for many reasons
starting with her looks
she thinks she's just plain ugly
while looking at air brushed models in a book.
Then it goes to her parents
who fight constantly about her everyday
for every cut she makes
it makes the pain go away.
First she goes to crying
then crying goes to rage
she finds what she can
then turns to her arm like a mad dog out of its cage.
Its like the world stopped turning
and everything’s so quiet
a numbing feeling and joy spreading
as blood dripping turns into a riot.
She smiles as the blood
comes pouring from her flesh
she forgets about everything
until its time to wipe it up and refresh
Then she starts to think
that she's a really bad girl
she starts again crying and
felling urges to hurl.
When her mom finds out
she feels she's a bad mother
it's not her fault
or the girl's brother.
But no one understands
so she learns to hide them well
comes up with excuses
even the best learners can’t tell.
One day she'll stop
when the stress goes away
for now leave her alone
and let her relieve stress her own way

~OH YES, i had a friend read it and she told me i wrote it sometime around
the begining of school so this is mine. sorry for the confusion.~
 
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