People see you and say that you are fine.
They don't realize what they do to you inside.
They just see you as quiet and kind.
But they don't know that everything goes wrong, all the time.

These feelings and this pain tears you apart.
But your friends don't seem to care, they all look away.
Once you think about your life it causes the feelings to start.
Day after day the feelings come, ripping up your heart.

You try to tell them how you feel, but they don't see you.
You seem invisible, unresponsive, and hopeless inside.
You never realized how much harm this pain can do.
They see you there drowning in your tears, but they don't have a clue.

You just wish someone would know the reality of this pain.
You try to escape this life by shutting yourself away.
You try to see whats wrong but you just wish that you had no brain.
To think about this life drives you insane.

You reach out for some type of response, but no one's ever there.
Time after time of crying yourself to sleep only drives you deeper.
Your feelings have depredated you and the only thing you can do is stare.
Wondering if there will ever be a time when someone will care.

They have raped you and left you to die.
All you can do is sit there and stare.
Every second a thought comes to you and makes you cry.
You've been living for 15 years and everything you've done has
been a lie.

All the time you run away only trying to find where your true soul hides.
You try to see if you still feel by bleeding yourself dry.
You just stare, stare as your life flashes before your eyes.
Slowly, gently, every part of you withers and dies.

Only trying to find yourself to see if your still alive.
Moment after moment eating away at your life.
You try to swim out of this ocean of lies you've created, but it only
makes you dive.
To you life is the torture of one thousand knives.

-M

 
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