I wanted to get married
couldn't wait to love another
I grew up and out of my pampers
Scheaming away the boredom days
till the day I met a guy
and hurled myself onto him
and ran away
then I got lost
in this lover's lust
tricked more guys
and bruised more hearts
I didn't feel anything
not even my own fingers that hid my face with shame
I met another and did the same
but to my surprise
he wouldn't let go
he swung in anger and hit me to the floor
but I didn't cry, I knew I was a bad girl
and braced myself for another
but he held me to the wall and kissed me hard
I tried pushing away but he just kept draining me of my pride
that night I slept on the floor
hugging myself
wanting not to be this person I've become
but changes take effort
and all my effort went to hurting others
I went through guys
but now ive met one that went through me
it hurt like a deepening splinter
the knot in my throat so overwhelming
I couldn't help but cry
but it's my fault
I chose this life
I chose wrong
 
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