Im thinking about you again
I know you know it because you put these thoughts here
you stain my mind like a tainted church window
there to stare at but nomore real then it's appearance
I too am realizing this world I carved out isn't so fine
the walls stretch of unlimitations and I hurt the people who help me
you do this because you enjoy watching me squirm in my bed
though you love me too your too afraid to let me confront you
I walk alone and gesture my hand and grasp yours...
shadow walking to this lonely playground
we were together since we where young
life just isn't the same
I want the smell of your hair to linger through my room forever
but I know now you died out
I'm too scared to let go this time
too hurt to let another tear fall
I promised I wouldn't cry over this...not anymore
yet you still dare to cross my mind
grinning,smiling your way through the world
THROUGH THAT FAKE SMILE OF YOURS IS A BURNING DESIRE
a desire to have one like you walk your crooked path
I want too...but life is unfair and gives you just enough to want to kill
yourself
and while the blade is at my throat...I try to diminish my love and be
selfish for once
but then again..you...slowly walk up to me and lift my head...you slide your
frozen hands down my cheek
I just stare...all I can do now is stare at you as my eyes burn with the
passion to cry out your name even though your right infront of me
I need you....but I'm speechless...you kiss me gently in the rain and I
told myself I wouldn't fall for you but then again...your angel that
stalks my cold nights
and your the only one I love that I haven't hurt...the decision is
made...
The lost girl follows the lost boy
 
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