The Feeling Of Being Useless !
Written By : Amy Zachow

Why is that I feel the way I do … the feeling of pure uselessness?
Could it very well be the time I am in, what I consider an unnecessary
mess.

For once I feel I am not one that can be of any use to anyone.
The days go by, the nights go by, without any sign of any fun.

People argue with me on this fact, saying I am indeed of some use,
But soon I may have to let myself go, to voice my opinion, to let loose.

What ever happened to the days, nights that there was all joy?
Lately those days, nights all seem to contain nothing but pain.

For all this pain and sorrow, I have created what I will call “the wall”
Right now my biggest fear is that this wall will never fall!

For here I stand, being blamed and accused for things that are far from
true.
For these actions tend to make a person sad and blue.
All I ever was to this person was true,
But in return I am left to be blue.

I am told again, and again, it will stop, it will change.
But is this line going to add my book yet another page.

I am asked to believe in him.
Again, I have been told all this before and
Because I don’t know if I can as of yet
I am left to feel as if I committed a sin.

With all this hurt, pain, anger and all other feelings
How am I expected to count my blessings?

Do I thrive for these feelings?
I would think not.
I wouldn’t have them without all these dealings!

So with this I am here to say, please try to understand me
Understand why I am the way I am
If you can’t understand all this, I suggest you set me free.

Setting free is not something I plan
For I feel that should simply be banned.
As of lately seems that everything I do isn’t good enough for you
All I ever do I make you sad and blue.

If I am leaving you at a constant sad and blue,
How can be a love so pure and true?

Is it a thing of love is blind
And you are afraid a new love to find?

For I don’t see me making you happy
Or I wouldn’t be sitting here feeling crappy.

Will there ever be a day, I see the love I once knew
The feeling I once knew

The love that overwhelmed me with joy and happiness
That did nothing more that bring happy tears to my eyes

For all these happy days were soon forgotten
As all these sad days soon took their place.

I am at a loss of why this had to happen.
And for this is why I say
I have the feeling of
Being useless!














 
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