You are my inspiration now
I know you were wondering how
You got me through my hard nights
Convincing my that it was alright

I sat there thinking that I was alone
Thinking no one cared, thinking I didn't have a home
All of the sudden you were there
It was like god had answered my prayer

I was tired of all the lies I had been fed
I thought that soon I would be dead
So many times I thought it was the end
I couldnt even face you, my dear sweet friend

I was so ashamed
Of the way I led my life
I thought I would be blamed
So I picked up the knife

You sat there with all your sadness and fears
Pleading me with your cold damp tears
Saying with your fading eyes
What made you come to this and why

I tried to answer but all I could do was cry
I sat there thinking my only two options were to suffer or to die
I love you with all my heart
But I had made up my mind I was going to part

Then I thought to myself
You would not be with me when I die
So I began to tell you
And I did not lie

So you looked at me
Waiting for the heart break you were about to be fed
I looked down at you
And then coldly I said

Kristine you are so beautiful
Why do you waste your time on me
Im just a stupid little girl
That in this world can never really be
Im so sorry for what I did
I dont know how
But this all started when I was just a kid
I love you so much
And I will always be with you
you looked at me like
Girl do what you gotta do

You turned away
As the knife did persist
You then looked at me
As my life almost ceased to exist

I woke up in the hospital
You were by my side
And at that moment
I desperatly wanted to hide

I thought that death had won
And that the pain had just begun
You assured me that it would be alright
And that I had won the lonely fight

You smiled down at me
And all I saw was love
You told me that you did care
And that it would be awhile till I went above

I thought it was the end of my life
Im sorry for what I put you through
So I threw away the knife
It's amazing what friends can do.............

~Amanda~

AUTHORS NOTE: This poem is dedicated to one of my friends , Kristine, she
was always there for me and she has saved my life many times! I thank her so
much!
 
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