why do i hate myself
and refuse to let myself be happyy
why must i torment myself
and wring these tears from my eyes
you ask me these questions
and i dont know the answers
i cant promise like you can
and i cant guarantee my love forever
i cant guarantee my love for today
im terrified at the thought of devoting myself so young
but terrified at the thought of losing you
you tell me you love me
and somehow it makes me cry even more
i dont want to hurt you
and i know i will
these thoughts terrify me
i sit here, rocking back and forth
hands balled into fists
trying not to claw my hair out
never before
have i felt this way
how i want to feel the cut
relieve the bad feeling thats overwhelming me
i dont know where it comes from
i know i dont deserve you
i know i cant live without you
i dont know what to do
you make these promises of forever
when i cant promise today
im terrified of being with you
but i know i cant live without you
 
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