All the things I needs to say to feel better
Every sentence I think in my head and can never tell you how much I hate
what you did.
Feel the fustration of all the mistrust and how much I still want you to
hold me.
I can never let myself break at the seams to fall into you and let you lead
me the wrong way.
A risk I don't want to take.
I want you to know
It's not me, IT IS YOU!
Your a mess in my life and you hold
on to too much of your past living through it like you can change it.
You can't you never will, and you keep trying. It's gonna get you no where.
Every thing I hate about you
I can never tell you because I love you to much to hurt you
Like you hurt me.
It's not me, it is you!
Seems like all the times I think about how wonderful things were I do
something to forget them.
Forgetting isn't what I want to do, but forget the pain.
How do I let go and forget when you haven't even tried to make it up to me.
Leaving it all to me, but I guess that is what you do best.
Avoid the problem then the rest of your life figure out what you did that is
leaving you so confused.
Screaming at every feeling and never living in the moment.
...Never breaking the habit...
Your such a fuck.
God I wish you would break the habit.
But it isn't me, IT IS YOU!
Keep fighting those past battles in your head and leave it all to someone
else to show you what you mean.
Then mess it up by trying to figure out those past mistakes with something
so great in your life it is all figured out.
But is you, IT'S NOT ME.
Leave me, hurt me, never call and expect me to come running back to you.
Dream on, You made the mistake and you leave me with the pain. I shouldn't
hurt for your mistakes and I hate you for it!
Then I want to have what we had.
It was the best thing in my life to have.
You.
Just you.
I hate the way you did this to me.
Everything I hate about you.
Then I want to fall back into your arms.
 
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