Many years back
When we first met
We became just friends
As I now regret

The years have past
From that beginning
And feelings have changed
To longing and lusting

My heart skips a beat
Everytime I "see" you
And I feel so dejected
When I must bid you adieu

We have confronted
Our feelings toward eachother
But to keep our friendship
I hid my true desire

"We" agreed that it cant happen
"We" agreed that its impossible
Since the distance between us
Will be miles innumerable

I tried to tell myself so
That what you said was right
But I think about what happened
Almost every single night

And I think I still love you
For what you truly are
I feel lost, confused, without you
So I wish upon a star

I wish that this would work out
I wish you'd know what I endure
I wish you'd understand
That I am still unsure

I regret saying those words
I don't know if you do
But everytime I talk to you
I think... that I still love you

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In 4th grade, I became friends with one of the greatest guys I know. We had
so much fun together; working on school projects together, going to the
pool, having dinner at eachothers house... until he had to move at the end
of 5th grade. We didn't keep in touch much, but I still held the
memories we created in my heart. I then moved across the country in 8th
grade, and it was then that I found out his screen name and we started to
talk again. I guess with all the troubles of getting settled and him being
so sweet and understanding, I realized that I love him. Then, this spring, I
found out that I have to move overseas, and when I was so upset about that,
he comforted me. Just a couple months earlier when we were talking, I
confessed my love to him, when to my suprise, he admitted that he too liked
me since 5th grade. We talked about how we could work it out for 3 days and
3 nights... until "we" came to an agreement that it would be close
to impossible to keep a relationship going with such a large distance
between us., and that we would rather be good friends. But I guess I just
agreed to make the situation better, to keep what we have, and to make him
happy. This isn't what I want, but I can't do anything about it. I
love him, but I don't want him to know again... I don't want to
hurt him... again.....

And sorry about the bad rhyming, I just wanted to get the message out
because I was feeling so frustrated about the whole ordeal =P
 
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