I love him so much, I cant do a thing about it
I hate him so much, but I cant live without him
what is wrong with me? I date him because i cant deny my love
maybe hes wrong for me......I hate him because I cry for love
when my day was dark and i needed light, he seemed heaven sent
but now im on my feet and living right, his loves making me bent
I hate to admit it, im dependent, cant render it, its apparent
my parents arent aware of it, but me being in love, they fear it
affraid of the product,my sister is the end result,
2 kids at 23, living at home, claimin to be an adult
I said, "i'd never fall in love", especially not with him
but my plans of manipulation have seemed to fail yet again
I just wanted to use him, get in and out before attachment kicked in
my dependency depends on me, I could leave but the strengths not in me
its highly unlikely for me to pack everything now,
especially after I promised to have his child
what was going on with me? I was stupid enough to promise him my virginity
smiled innocently and guaranteed he would be the only man inside of me
monogamy, with infidelities, but his speech, its like living hell for me
you see, he says he loves me, but I've fallen victim to lust
it WAS a must, I cant tell him now though, I'd lose his trust
what do i do? his ignorance is abuse enough for me, when I look at him
his beautiful face, rough skin, long eye lashes, perfect imperfections
but wait, this cant be all my fault, I didnt cheat for one reason alone
that night I called him and told my NEEDS, he just laughed and hung up the
phone
I remember now, I was pissed, he deserved everything I did to him that day
But I still loved him, I cant tell him, I know we just cant end that way
I HATE HIM, for being so trusting and trusting a chic thats disgusting
hes so unsuspecting and unquestioning, it disgusts me, hes so naive
I cant be with some one like that, then it hits me, hes not the guilty one
so I have to protect him, and hide it more, I'll live with what
i've done


I hate him because I love him
I hate him because of what I've done
I hate him because I was wrong and cant do a thing
I HATE HIM, I HATE HIM, but why am I wearing his ring??

BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!!!

 
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