God,
My creator, my father, my friend;
You, of all beings,
must know my aching heart.
You must know
of the unholy grip
that my past has on me.
I could say I'm in love,
but I'd be lying.
So I tell You,
I WAS in love-
but you already know.

Please, God,
I know you sent him to me.
I ask of Your Forgiveness
for the time I turned him down.
I didn't realize
that You knew me so much better
and I turned from that
into the tar-like mouths
of the material world-
You know what I'm
talking about.
You know what I chose
over Your precious gift.

God,
I need your help.
Please take my regret,
as I know You've been waiting
for me to ask of You.
I am giving you my past,
and the remains of my
broken heart.
Do with it what you will,
because I'm so tired
of watching him;
wondering;
waiting.
Please make it
so I see him as
The Someone I Knew
My Sophomore Year
Three Years Ago.
And let it rest.

Your Strong and Loving Daughter,
Sarah
 
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