I don’t know what too do..
I want to love you
I want to hate you
I want to be happy
I want to cry
How can you make all these emotions
Come forth?
Why must I be cursed?
I want too be with you so bad.
But one thing will always make me uneasy
Will I hurt you?
Will I push you way
once you get too close..
You say you wanna help..
But can you help something so useless?
You say you can handle anything
I throw at you..
But can you stand the sadness?
I don’t want too bring you down
I love you too much
I know that you are good for me
But am I good for you?
That I know that I’m not..
I’ll only bring you sadness and pain..
And how can one do that if they love you.
When you love one..
You can’t bring them pain..
Even if it’s for the best..
So, you see my love...
I’m at a lost...
Either way I will hurt you..
With a yes or a no
Pain will be on it’s way..
That is why I put these walls around me..
To protect you from what I really am..
The monster you never seen.
For you only see the good
And I see the worst..
So, baby
Please don’t get mad..
When I pack my stuff and leave..
Just know..
I love you
 
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