Riding the waves of my deep depression,
I feel myself begin to surrender.
Sitting in a corner,
Away from the world,
Everything is a tape stuck on fast-forward.
Except for me.

Watching it all fall apart again,
How foolish was I to think this time would be different,
Watching it all fall apart again,
That slim moment of joy is now gone with the wind.

Battling the sudden urge to spill my heart and soul,
Spill my blood,
Spill my tears,
It's all been locked up for far too long.

Strange, how I always find myself so far away,
When everyone is sitting right here next to me,
I find I prefer the silence of the forest,
Oh, the solitude,
I can't ignore its calling.

Try as I might to stay focused in one place,
I always end up floating away,
Only to be jerked back into reality,
But someone's unpleasant, idiotic comment about me.

Say what you want to,
You’re the reason I space.
Floating and drifting so far away from your face.

I don't understand how admits a huge and noisy crowd I feel so alone,
In a whole different time and space continuum,
What I wouldn’t give to just be normal.

I want to understand how I get so far away,
No matter how hard,
That I try to stay.
Probably since it's not worth it my mind,
Plagued by fools,
Decides to leave to a space of its own.

Whenever in the presence of someone else's company,
I just feel the need to hide and flee.
Instead of walking in a group,
I prefer to walk alone,
The silence is the beauty,
The relief of that which is the normal.

If only they could understand,
Get past the veil,
Truly see, and maybe then…

All I want…is to leave it all behind,
Fly and find a place far away from this life,
Since even in the place that I am supposed to feel safe and free,
Is truly a place I cannot stand to be?

It's all dust in the wind,
There's no going back,
I guess sitting on a solitary rock and staring at the water is where I will
be at.
Amusing it must be, to look upon the scene,
A huge noisy gathering,
And then,
There's just…me.

I feel the need to speak,
But whenever the open their mouths it just makes me want to rip my eardrums
out.
Their voices,
My torture,
So loud and unseeing,
If only I could find another who has a soul similar to me.

I always thought I would like a companion,
But now I see,
I thrive alone.
I stand alone.
Silence is my only friend.
The solitude save me,
Deliver me,
I run forever.
Forever alone.

 
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