Drawlings on my arm
Too weak to press harder, deeper
You're nothing
Just a girl
In a crazy world
Long sleeve shirts in the summer
Cover up the battles I've lost
And the tears I've cried
Emotions I've spilled
Coward
Sinking into an unfathomable darkness
They know nothing about me
I like it that way
Quiet
But even sometimes silence is too loud
I cover my ears in pain.
What's wrong with me
If they only knew
But they dont..
Another drawling
Another struggle lost
If only i had the courage to press harder
Deeper
I could end this
Agony
Anxiety bottled up inside me
This panic that grips me by my neck
Leaves its nasty hand prints on my fragile neck
I'm so desperate, I need that rush
From the blood that forms at my wrist
The pain is gone
Only for a little while
It comes back and yet...
Another wrestle lost
Settling emotional pain
With the excruciating pain on the outside
It makes the pain inside fade to black
And the outside pain grow
Fear
That I just might kill myself one day
Maybe that would be better?
Maybe not
Confusion doesn't help me
It just angers me
Making me mad
Another battle
Lost
Addicted
 
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