always on the verge of tears
with noone to take my hand
so ashamed of the life i live
i dont know where i stand
noone knows the whole truth
no matter how much you mean to me
completly tearing myself apart
i could never let you see
i can go days without sleeping
i dont ever want to eat
you dont know everything that goes on
i just close my eyes in defeat
and when the pain comes
destroying every moment of my life
you dont know just what i do
to forget this never ending strife
with every day i feel im getting weak
i shouldnt even expect you to care
when i needed someone to talk to
you were never even there
my hairs always a mess
make-up still running down my face
im just so different from everyone else
i always feel so out of place
you see me smile not knowing what i just went through
at any moment i could break down and cry
i could just slit my arms wide open
and just pray to God that i'll die
you dont know how i feel
looking in the mirror seeing me
i cant stand my own reflection
and knowing what i'll never be
all of the pills
all the times i got sick
sometimes i get so dizzy
i figure my minds just playing another trick
my past will always stay in the past
just thinking about it kills me
if you looked into my tired eyes
you'd be suprised at what you'd see
 
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