I feel so low.
So alone.

Do you know what that feels like?
Like all the earth is laughing at you
Like your falling and falling
To never hit rock bottom..

All I want is one little up..
Just one small one.
To make everything
All better

Just let me get a light and a bowl..
I'll even buy the dime.
Push the weed down
Till just perfect
Put the pipe up to my mouth
Light the lighter and burn the bottom of the bowl
Suck in and hold on to dear life
After a while
Let it out
And feel the happiness returning.

Or

Let me go out
And have a couple drinks.
I know my limits.
I promise not to push it.
I'll take a shot, beer or the hard stuff
NO matter to me..
Just let me get to where I wanna be..

Or

Put a little piece of paper on my tongue
And let it desolve..
Also known as acid
Let the pretty colors and images come

Fuck me up
I don't care!
I just want a little up.
Just to get me back on my feet..
Please just give me a little up..

I'll do anything for it..
You want money..
A certain thing..
I'll get it..
I'll even sell my body..

All I want is a little up..
To get me away from the pain...
Is that to much to ask for?
 
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