I wanna leave this place, run far away,
Where nobody judges me, where I'm in no pain,
I don't wanna be afraid, or hide my face in shame
I just wanna go away, see nothings the same,
Im tired of crying, my hearts not here,
I've lost everything I ever wanted, not like I ever got it anyway,
I've been ripped up and shredded, my heart bleeding red,
My body weak from the swelling, its all black and blue,
My pillow all wet from the tears that I've cried,
Eyes that are puffy from the sleepless cold nights,
No feeling , I'm numb, I'm ugly its true,
My clothes they're to big, cause im fat like a balloon,
No guy would like me, even if I tried,
My tummy is to big, and I have my big thighs.
I'll keep my big smile on, because I can lie,
No one will see behind my brown eyes,
My head hurts my nose runs,
I shut my mouth up, just cry.
My hand shakes, my tongue weighs.
With each bomb I come down, just tumbling away.
I'm rotting, decaying, I've taken to much,
No friends that I have, they wont need to worry that much,
No sooner or later, I'll be out the door.
Rip away my emotions I'd rather have none.
Look at all the pain, just a single emotion has done.
I'm drowning away in my own flesh and blood.
Being crowded like crazy, criticism lyke guns.
A shot to the heart but wow I'm still here.
A shot to the head I'm screaming in fear.
I can't say a word, I'll just let it sink in.
Why did I believe that I could ever fit in?
No one would look back if I was bleeding to death,
My wrists and fists hurt from pulling hair from my head,
But I'll dance with whats left with my heart, even if I was near death,
Dance away the pain thats banging my head,
The things that I feel from this useless soul,
But I'll dance lIke theres no tomorrow feel like I've heard no lies,
And smile like I've never been hurt,
I'll kill love for there is no time, love is just a game,
That stabs and rips and burns you alive.
To many times I've played that wicked game,
And over and over I get hurt again.
Why do things have to be mean to me?
All I ever wanted was to be free.
All I ever wanted was to be me.
Why is it so hard for people to see?
I'd rather be dead than ask for more pain and cry myself to sleep.
I just want to sleep now. Close my eyes and walk toward the light.
I wanna fly so high. I wanna fly away.
I'll miss you all.... but forget about me tonight
 
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