As I look back to my past life, I see so much
that is the different about me now, but still
at the same time, I see a lot of the things
about me are still the same...maybe I might
not fully see it, but its there...lingering in the
back of my mind. What does one do when
they try to forget? Push those memories back
farther...no....that will do nothing, they will
just come back even faster. Priorities,
judgement, morals...these are a few of many
that have been something that I seem to
jumble around, not sure of where to put them
in my mind sometimes. That can be bad
I know because it will lead me to a path that
is dangerous...but what if I'm taking it already
...is it too late? Can I go back...of course not
...but...can I find a dirt road somewhere,
where I can pick up where I should have left
off...perhaps. I look over my shoulder and I
see the many forks in the road that I could
have taken...yet I chose this one...will it be
the right one? Who knows, only time will tell,
but as I continue to look over my shoulder I
find that its not that I'm moving forward, with
new ideas, or a new self, but a lingering past
that will always be with me...so should I be
walking forward, and looking behind to see my
faults in the past? Or should I walk backwards,
looking to my past constantly to remind myself
of what I've done, and changing myself and
my ways by looking over my shoulder to the
future, every once in a while? I guess I'm
happy with whatever decision I will reach...but
until then I will always be looking over...
my shoulder.

 
Copyright © nevermore107, All Rights Reserved