summer nights
the leaves fall down
and so do I
into the arms of....who?
autum days
the leaves are down
and so am I but....why?
I'm so sick of being tired
I'm so tired of being sick
isn't this everything I need?
isn't this the air I breath?
then why can't I catch my breath?
why, when a shooting star crosses the sky...
why oh why?
do I not know what to wish for?
I know how to get what I want
I just have a problem acting normal
when I'm nervous
and I just don't know what I want
Just tell me now
Where is my motivation
when everything I beleive in
shows no signs of getting back up from the ground
and tell me
why is everything here not worth what it used to be
why is everything so blurred
I can't tell my emotions apart
when I used to be able to reccognize myself so easily
everything is smeared
like one of my paintings
like a picture remembered through tear filled eyes
there are no tears in my eyes
my eyes are dry
there is no fear in my eyes
I see nothing to be afraid of here
except for me
and I can't see me
and I can't see my heart like a clock
why isn't it keeping time?
It's ticking isn't steady anymore
it's gears are winding down
what's wrong?
why can't I just look at the clock on the wall?
or keep a watch around my wrist
then I won't have to read my heart
it's too hard to read anyways
and I hate the fear that I can't see
I hate the fear that I don't want to feel
I hate the hate that's not there
and I love every mineut of it
but.....just......
why? please, I really don't get it
and this joke isn't funny anymore
I want to know how I feel
he looks at me....
what does he say?
one question
one word
one
"why?"
but I don't know.

 
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