Every night I sit there trying to think of all the happy things in life but
all I see is the haunting memory of that one night that one night has ruined
my life forever then comes the second and I feel like even more of a lowlife
soon enough the third time creeps along and I start to think of what kind of
burden I have been caring for so long I think of all the days that have been
complete lies I have to wonder y me what have I done to deserve all this
pain that will never fade this pain is like a new way of life that seems to
poke at me and never go away its like I feel guilty for something that I
didn’t even do I am now a victim I am also a statistic I am a little part
of a huge number I don’t think many people know what its like to be a
statistic especially for this certain subject here is the statistic that I
am apart of every one in four girls is raped of sexually abused by the time
they are 18 and I am not one in those every four girls this statistic has
helped me to loose a very important person in my life that used to be able
to call a best friend and a sister but now can not she has sworn on the
bible that she will never talk to me again because matt is her brother and I
am just some girl that is said to be her sister so that’s how she feels
about me is it? I thought I had a friend and someone I could confide in but
I guess I was mistaken and taken ad a fool all I ever want to do anymore is
cry I want to cry the tears of the world until there are no more tears to
cry my feelings are so mixed and complicated I feel really weird and unsure
I don’t know how I am ever going to face matt again or anyone else in that
side of my family
yes this poem was written because i have been raped 3 times it took that
many times for me to realize that i am getting my life ruined it has been
only 2 months from the last rape and i still cry every night wondering y i
should still live my life i hate it so bad but i go on for all the other
girls out there just like me if u want to im me on aim my sn is either
sexyemericansk8r or synchrochic33 thanks bye guys love y all and if u wanna
talk about this subject i am now sponsered to go to schools and talk about
it so i can help although i am only 13
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